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Where to start.

I finally went to the doctors this morning to get a referal to a nutritionist or a dietician to start figuring out why most food hurts me. I have spent probably 95% of my time awake, searching for answers and testing out food. I finally broke yesterday when I ate a golden delicious apple and experienced sharp stomach pains. An apple! I have always been able to eat apples and not feel like that. It just feels like it is getting worse.
The doctor sent me on my way with a sheet of paper. The paper is for a blood test. I hate(fear) blood tests. But, I am going tomorrow morning, because as much as I cant stand them, the idea of living with this frustration is far worse.
Through my own trail and error, I do know that wheat makes me ill. Right after eating it I usually have very painful stomach cramps, but notice it more the next day when I have zero energy, muscle aches, headache, and more recently I have noticed it severely effecting my mood. Before It was just the stomach ache, now I start to feel really depressed and quiet. Scary to think how fast things went from bad to the worst.
I have known I had lactose intolerance my whole life. When I was little, after I had dairy, my stomach would get really bloated and rock hard. So I have been drinking rice, soy and almond milk since then. I had still been eating butter and cheese though, which does not make any sense, so I have cut that out recently.
Alas, the search continues for a pain free life...